I am pleased to say I don't honestly remember hearing or seeing others in my Church who have acted for the rewards for themselves instead of for others.
Pride is very hard to drop when it is near..... perhaps the lady I was referring to some posts back who made me feel uncomfortable was dealing with a pride issue.
I reflect personally to this myself, not in church but in work, I have noticed in the last year, in my role within the Nursery that I am proud of what I have achieved. I am very creative and love thinking of new ideas and developing displays etc. recently another lady has joined us and I have had to step back a little and let her take over the jobs i was getting praised for and enjoying. Pride certainly became an issue with me. I am aware of it and trying my best to praise her with truthful meaning, and actually after a while now it has made my job easier to manage with less to do.
But it can sometimes be still hard, because of pride.
The lady I was referring to before is actually a lovely lady and has really tried to be helpful and has recently prayed with me in Church.
moving onto the other question for session 6. I read a few times to deeply follow the meaning and I now think I understand it.
When I reached out to a Vicar over a year ago things in my life started to change big time. I think I've mentioned in another forum but this rings true when reading page 28.
We serve others, you could say we are the servants to all others as we would like to be treated also and if it is done truthfully with faith, courage and love then god will want to reward you. but this cannot be done truthfully with the reward in mind you need faith courage and love. then the anointing takes place. I only know this from my own experience. this is just my own thought and reflections on this.
Next question for session 6
to be called to serve others is the meaning to me of being a real disciple of God. we dont boast about all we do we dont show off we are quiet and do what we know is right to others and serve. My church community has links with the food bank which is something on my heart to be a part of. infact I want to be a vicar so I have time to be involved in everything to help out. I also like moving around such as attending different churches etc. if I was a vicar I could concentrate on everything I want to be involved in the community church etc and really make a difference. i believe i could make a huge difference. to serve god every day! thats what i want to do. yes we can do this in our daily jobs as we have discussed before but im craving for more. I have past experience working as a activity coordinator with dementia, residential and medical. When I look back now I believe God put me there for a reason, I used to sit with the residents and talk with the church people in castle donington and the vicar i used to love helping the elderly. I would orgaise for the catholic desiidents as well and attend the nursing home services. I never thought of myself as a vicar back then. I think God has been guiding me in the right direction for some time I just never realised.
What you describe as a growing feeling of "craving for more" might be the point where what you are experiencing is more than simply "doing what I feel needs doing" and could possibly reflect some kind of call. Or the start of one... it can be a long journey and not everyone who becomes a vicar finds it as fulfilling as they had hoped.
Thank you for openly sharing about external rewards versus internal calling.
Self-reflection like that is not always easy and it is something I've not always enjoyed doing but it helps us grow!
After all our journey is to be more like Jesus, addressing pride and bringing humility instead as you have done is a brave step. Well done! :-)
Hi Alicia, I'm sure that we all have had times when God has been guiding us and we have not realised it. I sense a deep spiritual reflection going on in you which is truly inspiring.
I also enjoy attending different churches and types of service, and dare I say, denominations. I feel we have much to share and learn from each other.